Never ever give up!

Wrote this a few days ago, but internet died and didn't post it XD


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考完了三科 剩下十一號的145.223 Climate Change & Natural Hazards
(不知道為什麼這科這麼晚 有些人那時候都考完快兩個禮拜了.... o.O)
But I'm not complaining...... because it gives me more time to prepare for earlier (and much harder) papers.
This semester is great :)
最難的兩科先考完 (had about 2 weeks to prepare for those too!), Forensic Psychology and Brain & Behaviour.
後來考Bicultural Perspectives.... In all honesty, I contemplated clicking the "withdraw" button in online enrolment, because I kinda over-prepared for my first paper (Forensics), and didn't start studying for Bicultural until 3 days before the final exam >.<
現在想想還是真的很恐怕耶.........
It's possible to "pass"....... but to get an A or A+ in the final exam with only 3 days of studying/preparation....? Owell.... it's done, and I'm fully leaving it in God's hands now :)

Still gotta study hard for my 4th exam though.
It's hard, because EVERYONE (well... 95% of the people anyway.....) has finished their exams and are already in holiday/festive moods. Most people don't leave for home straight after their exams, and it's quite hard locking yourself in your room hitting the books (feel like doing it literally sometimes....... hah........) and everyone else is out enjoying the sun, relaxing, having fun T____T

But I have survived this year.
And learnt so much new lessons and experiences. Grew so much as a person, though I know I still have a fair bit to get through still.

But it's the process and the journey with Jesus that makes it so much more worth living for.... There's so much uncertainty in life.
I don't know what I'll be doing next year, whether I'll like it there at my new place, etc etc.
But.........
It's all to do with attitude, determination, perseverance, and trust.

Often we can't see the path ahead.
Shall we just stand at the same place and wait for the future that never comes?
Or we can take courage, and travel on ahead, trusting that God will be there to guide us and direct our steps.

Sure, some people go straight ahead on the path in a straight line, getting to their goals/dreams seemingly without encountering obstacles and hardships. Others walk at a much slower pace (sometimes resort to crawling..........snail-speeds XD), and take wrong turns, and have to end up walking back to the starting point again.

But whichever category you may fit into.... this is your life, not anyone else's.
Every little "mistake" and wrong turn you make, is what makes you "you".

FIGHT! XD

好懷念100 level的papers XD
要讀的書真的少很多
(但那時候真的覺得讀不完 -__-)

跟著朋友聊著考試的話題
她現在讀著我上學期讀過的一門課
要考的只有5 chapters,180個選擇題
miss that so much >.<
200 & 300 level papers 要讀的真的很多..... (現在不應該在上網 :P )

她問了我要讀多少
我說14個chapters (整本也只有15 chapters -__-"), 有multi-choice & 4 essays
她聽了說還ok嘛
原來她以為是我全部要讀的 o.O

反正Psychology就是讀讀讀囉 (sigh.......)

大三的更crazy
the WHOLE textbook 加上厚厚一碟的readings/journal articles >.<

雖然課少........... 是因為全都花在看textbook上 Orz............

Back to study.............. XD
(gia yo!! positive attitude!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Pre-exams >.<

這個semester真的有點讀不下了
(上個semester也是拉..... -__-")

不要想還有多少要去讀
而就是去讀他就對了 !!

早上九點K到noon
一點再繼續K, K到六點做公車回家
好想睡覺 ><
等下再K Orz.............

假期 等著我吧 XD

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今天去拿回了令一個 223 assignment
心理有點complicated
(why? hah........................ yeah...............)

84%
老師你好歹也多給1%嘛 =.=
差一點就A+了
Owell... I'm happy ^o^


Don't think, just do

When love hurts (and you know you're just stupid anyway)

I'll get over it
Cos there comes a point when you realise
that you're just stupid
A silly silly girl
(and nothing has happened anyway)
And I'm stupid wishing it did
(but the chances of that is like winning the lotto... keep thinking you will, when the chances are it's never going to happen)

No it's not love
It's infatuation

Knowledge is sexy
Status, power, and authority is sexy

But stuff sexy

Get your head around, girl
And focus on your bloody exams

happyhappy~ XD

今天拿回來了145.223 的 assignment.
看的時候 都要抱著"必死"的心態
這要不管成績怎樣 心情都會變好 (除非真的是很慘的成績...... ^^")

看到lecturer寫的comments,心理真的很開心呢
(還用對了我的英文名字... 平常去找他的時候他都不知道我是他學生 ... -____-" )
他是英國來的 口音很好聽呢~
(差一點就變 A 了 ..... o.O 85% = cut-off point for A+...)





前一會Brain & Behaviour的考試
在tutorial拿回來的時候 也是抱著"必死"心態
老師拿回給我的時候 特別跟了我說 "top mark, well done"
害我愣了很久 不知道他在說什麼
是考的真的很慘嗎? >.<

Number 1 ^_______^
之後高興了很久 XD totally unexpected....
老師還寫了很可愛的comments...
"you've restored my confidence, test not too hard"
哈哈 是很難 >< 是我誤打誤撞的...... XD





繼續加油囉!!!!!! :D

洞........... 只想消失

Perseverence....... 不代表只是形容功課,工作上的一切
還包括著忍耐你周圍的一切
環境,人... 很痛苦
有說不出的話
眼淚連自己也不清楚為什麼會掉下來...

迷惑
無奈
無助

世界上.... 感覺.... 原來還是一個人阿......

父母把你生下來 你是一個人
人生過的一切 也還是一個人
以後老了 要離開世界了
最終也還是一個人

又多了些傷
有誰看的到呢?
人
還是最關心自己阿

昨天跟朋友說: "I just want to be normal"

問了我一生中最想做什麼事 什麼事讓我開心快樂
我............ 傻了 回答不出來

我想了想.... high school的這五年
沒有感覺到快樂
全部的時間和energy都花在努力的.......
尋找世界上有什麼質得我繼續存活的原因
努力的找出... reasons for why I shouldn't just disappear....

快七年了
我還沒走出來

浪費調了我的童年 我的光陰
為了什麼..........?

小時後有完在一起的玩伴
去年
走了
我了解 她為什麼會有這個最後的選擇

她.......
比我有勇氣

Cowards
怕死
是做不到的

我一點都不勇敢
我做不到

只是個空殼罷了....
在世界上
飄來飄去

發生什麼 我也不想在乎了

等到我有勇氣的那一天

Another great reason to go to the gym....

Off topic:
Gym裡有好可愛的personal trainer喔..... XD
今天有幫我開門呢~ gentlemen~~~ *heart*
可愛可愛 ^o^

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今天好像沒讀到啥書耶....
心理有點不安
明天再把他給補回來吧~

阿阿...... 為什麼又讀到了critical/discursive psychology阿... >.<
還以為上學期讀完了201就不會再碰到了 -.-"

我所熟悉的字.....
ontology... nature of reality.... epistemology....... //嘆氣..............

Just another example that life works out about 80% not what you expected.